I love writing and sharing here with you, whoever you are. I contemplate something everyday and this in turn prompts me to write. I’ve been this way since I was young, beginning with diaries and journals. I’ve been keeping journals my whole life and continue to do so even now. Writing helps me clarify my world. I guess I’m a writer and a philosopher. Maybe someday I will compile a book but for now I share here. These are a few of my writings from the past few weeks:
humble in life. We are neither more nor less than anything else in
creation. We are in this life to help other people with the lessons
they need to learn, and people are here to do the same for us. Therefore, we are
all teachers in one way or another, and we are all students. Know your
value to everyone you meet, minus loftiness, and also be humble and open
to the life lessons they will teach you. Be curious, like a
child, learn everything you can and be grateful for all the
opportunities you’re presented with to be a teacher and a student.
2)Now that my children are all grown up and off making lives of their own, I am free of the responsibility of raising a family. This has opened up a whole new world of freedom for me where I am truly able to live in the present, coming and going and choosing on my own terms. Don’t get me wrong, I loved the days of raising my family but there is a particular time frame to it (or there should be) and they grow up. Looking back it wasn’t just raising my own children though, I helped to take care of my 6 siblings growing up, I was married when I was 18, I raised four kids, had my day care license for 10 years, worked with probably thousands of children in my literacy business, The Story Train, got my degree, and helped to run a family business, BUT…none of that is very relevant or pressing anymore. I live such a different life now, one I never ever would have dreamed could be true for me. Sometimes I wonder how everything could have changed so much, but I’ve gained the wisdom to understand and accept that it is just the natural progression of life. Things change, nothing ever stays the same. You know, I never thought about nor would I have been able to comprehend the truth of that saying until now (but then again, why or how would I have known when everything seemed to stay the same for decades and decades and decades). In this new chapter of my life I have no map, path, or system to follow and each day unfolds in the most magically unexpected way. It took me a while to get used to living this new life, but wisdom reminds me that this new life will also change at some point. All I can do is to continue to try and be a good person, keep my chin up, and try and keep myself healthy ad strong. Since we don’t have control over much else, isn’t that really all any of us can do anyway?
3)Wishing the world a cheery “good morning” from
my kitchen as I sip my cup of tea. Today will be filled with a variety
of occurrences, some positive and some not so positive, just hang in
there (like I do) and keep focused on the knowledge that
you’re doing the very best you can. If by some chance you’re not, well
then I challenge you to get moving on that and stop wasting time. The
world needs the very best from all of us. No slackers allowed.
have a date with Mr. Sandman every night and a date with Gym every
morning (after I kick Mr Sandman out, of course). Don’t worry, they’ll
never meet each other, unless maybe if I am sleepy at the gym then they
might run into each other. That would be something, “Mr. Sandman, meet
Gym.” They wouldn’t like each other much because they both want more of
me. Oh well…what’s a girl to do. I’m trying my best to be fair.
a survivor means you never give up and you figure out a way out of a
problem or dilemma. For me, the downturn in the economy, job loss and a
divorce really knocked me off my feet financially. Trying to figure
out a way to get myself on track has been one of the most difficult
problems for me to solve (for a whole host of reasons). However, I
think I’ve finally found a system this year and
for me it has involved tapping into the multitude of skills I already
possess. It just goes to show you what an industrious person can do with
a little ingenuity, perseverance, and a positive attitude. None of
these are full time, mind you, which is one of the reasons why I am
juggling so many different jobs.
Yes, these all bring an honest buck into my house. I am so glad I know
how to do all these jobs, too, because being versatile is the only
reason I have survived.
6)Five years ago this morning I still had four
children in this world: Alfie, Cathy, John, and Carmen. That all
changed by 5:30 pm when we lost Carmen in a car accident. He was 20
years old. It’s been by far the most difficult challenge I‘ve
ever had to push myself through and continues to be so every single
day. But, honestly somehow you do find the strength to go on and I’ve
actually created my best life yet. This morning I was up early and
instead of just sitting around feeling sad I decided to go to the gym
and then take a nice drive along these beautiful country roads of South
Dartmouth and Westport. The serenity is soothing. The tears flow but I
have a sense of peace in my heart….my son is at peace, too, so this
is something we can share.
so crappy and tired yesterday (still weak from getting Lyme last month),
and I was sad about…well, just about everything in my entire life
(lol). Rested on the couch most of the day then lights out by 9:30 pm.
I think it’s so awesome how a day of rest and a good night’s sleep
makes everything better. It really does. Woke up at 4:30 am with a
renewed spirit, ready to tackle the day. I was
thinking that the best way to get stronger from this health problem
might be to start exercising and actually build my physical strength.
I’ve lost like 10 pounds since I got sick, (even though I’m eating ice
cream) and I don’t feel as strong as I was. It seems to me like I’m
just going to fade away, and I don’t like it at all. I think exercising
has to become a priority. Yes, my mind is set on that, and I also think
it’s a much more positive focus than the constant reminder of how
crappy I feel. 6 months from now I’ll be strong and toned and that will
make me feel good. “Go away sickness and being a weakling, you will
not overpower me.”
8)Destiny has a mind of it’s own and works in mysterious ways.
know, I disconnected from cable 5 years ago so I’ve probably saved
myself about $6,000. I smoked for 18 years and quit about 20 years ago
so I probably saved myself, oh I don’t know (2 packs a day) maybe
$40,000. I also don’t drink (well, I haven’t for about 20 years) so I
probably saved myself a lot of money like when I go out dancing or out
to dinner (drinks are expensive). I don’t take drugs
either so I probably saved a lot of money not getting high all these
years. Funny though, even without all those distractions I am one of
the most contented people I know. I can work hard, sit still and watch
the ocean, be spontaneous, love life, sing and dance, take care of
myself and truly be grateful for all that I have. I am just happy I’m
still here (isn’t that really what’s most important) and find that the
sweetness of living is in the awareness of just being.
That’s about it for now!
Love and peace,
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